I Love you LIKE I Hate you

Today I will share a story of a girl Meika. Well, her father passed away in 2016 when she was 21 years. She just completed her Master’s degree and started working in a respectable position as a journalist. Her mother passed away when she was 18 years old. She never had any siblings as such. Relatives were there who loved her but Meika believed in keeping them away from her. But, she was a strong girl though.

On a fine november night after dinner she opened her facebook account. She noticed there was a friend request. She opened that page and was shocked to see the name. It was from Aniket.

Aniket was Meika’s first crush, first love when she was in std 9. She could never move on from him. Though Aniket never knew about her love for him. She never dated in her entire college. Never even wanted to get married because the man she fell for was a self claimed saint.

Seeing his account made her fall in love with him again. She accepted his request. She didn’t message him though she kept an eye on his account.

On a Tuesday evening Meika updated some pictures of her on Facebook. And for the very first time Aniket commented. As soon as Meika saw it she jumped out of her couch with excitement. But, she composed herself though and replied only a smiley of smile to him. That night Aniket messaged her. And first time they spoke to each other. Aniket was a smooth talker. And Meika was already in love with him so she easily got flattered. She remembered the day the first time she saw him in Indian Ethnic dress, she fell badly for him. She never got a chance to get close to him as they were from same colony but he was a politician’s brother, and now her dream has come true.

As days and months passed by, their chatting increased. Affection towards eachother increased. And this time Meika decided to take a leave from work to go back to her home town to meet Aniket.

So on a weekend she went back to the city where she spent her childhood. But she decided to stay in a hotel rather than her own house. That evening Aniket came to the hotel where Meika was residing. Meika met him in the reception of the hotel. He took her to his place which he had converted into his study on his bike. Though Meika hated bikes but she couldn’t say no to him. After they reached at Aniket’s place. They sat and were talking about work, about hobbies in the meantime Meika’s phone rang. As it was a call from work she had to attend it. She excused herself and went nearby the window while speaking. After done as soon as she turned back she saw Aniket standing very close to her and Meika turned towards him he hugged her. As Meika loved him badly she melted in her arms. And then she initiated a kiss on his lips. They made out passionately that evening. For Meika it was her dream come true. And for Aniket a score. That night Aniket insisted her to stay with him but she didn’t she went back to the hotel. Ofcourse Aniket dropped her.

Meika slept like a baby that night because her dream came true.

Next day morning Aniket called her up and behaved abnormally. She informed him that she was having lunch at her best friends place. He got extremely possessive and even abused her in anger. Meika just said one sentence, “I believe we are yet not in a relationship, so why are you being possessive”. To which Aniket replied, “Because your best friend is a guy”. Meika was shocked to hear that. She decided to cancel the lunch and went to Aniket’s place to meet him. They met he said they can’t be together and they can only have sexual relationship. Meika was broken badly but as because she was good in hiding her emotions declined his offer.

In one moment her feelings for him changed and now she wants to avenge him at any cost.

See people I gave this example of Meika and Aniket because what we often fail to remember is that we are humans. Love and hate both are a part of that emotion. But there is a very thin line between love and hate. If love can make us blind hatred too can do that. So avoid all this. Because is a part of life. Stay happy and keep others happy.

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Do You Remember?

I know the way you look at me now, it is not the same. Our love has disappeared now.

But baby Do you remember?

The way you blossomed when I used to come,
The way you used to get angry whenever I left,
The way you blushed whenever I touched you.
Do you remember?

Please let’s reminisce the old times we have spent under the moon.

Those moments we used to get lost in each other’s eyes.
Those times when we knew we couldn’t live without each other.
The time when I believed you are only mine.
Do you Remember?

When you used to melt whenever I came closer to you,
The way you used to blow my mind away with your childlike innocence,
The way you used to Love me.
Do you remember my love?

Do you remember?

© Monidipa Dutta

Confusion

You are not unfaithful, neither am I.
But may be the luck is not on our side.

There’s a confusion going on between my heart and mind. And I don’t even know what to decide.

Now that we are on different sides, I don’t know how to reminisce for the mistakes I had made.

Whenever I try to look back again tears start flowing again.

Little love was there but now here is left nothing ..

© Monidipa Dutta

Despair in Love

It was necessary to get rid of the rivers from your eyes.
Though love was important, splitting was also important.

Years later now as the situations have changed
I found us still the same. That’s me, that’s you But i am lost But you are lost too.

I might have cheated in love as I was a non-believer.
I have reached the heights but still I remained a wanderer.
Now when I see you have thrown me out of your heart and I am nothing except a straying wanderer who has no where to go.

But I also agree that this was important.
Love was important so was splitting.

©Monidipa Dutta